foxpinay

it's more than a year since I updated my journal for deviant. Tinitingnan ko mga aktibidades ko sa DA at mukhang 2005 naging super aktib. Para sa mga taong kakilala ko na di ko masyado pinapansin (ay taray!) pasensya na mga kaibigan. Bale ano pa nga ba pinagagawa ko? Kasama na ako sa komunidad na nagtratrabaho bilang isang nagdidisenyo ng kung anu-ano, bale binababalikan ko na rin ang dati kong hilig ng pagdradrawing ng mga kuro kuro...wala eh nandun pa rin ang puso ko. at huli Hayun lasing pa rin pag may pinapanaluhang proyekto at kampanya. Kaya pag may inuman magtext text! Sige titigilan ko ito at maghahanap muna ako ng makakakain.

What was it? That I once find it entertaining that I can continue on while amused by it? I never seen myself so lost that nothing is making me interested . That I somehow lost my will to see what's next. Was it boredom to life? Walking to the same path? But where should I go? What was it that I kept getting up, trying to search for it even when I sit here writing this or while I close my eyes. I asked my friends what was it but they too cannot answer it. Are they also lost? Lost in this reality of questions? Maybe I cannot die with this question still here or maybe I'll just stay lost forever.

Shiyet napapagiwanan na ako ng mga kasabayan ko OO NA!!! Di na ako magiging bum in the next few weeks, mag trytry nanaman ako ng kung anu ano!!! *sleeps*